I was raised in a religion of horror in the BIble Belt.
Traumatized, I ran away from church and God to preserve my sanity. It's been decades now. I was lost and lonely. I found my way back, not to any hellfire, thumper religion, no, never, but to the Relevant God, after a really long time of pondering whether the risk was worth it.
I disolved that Risk.
Some good people get lost in the Bible, like it's the Bible instead of God who is our Father. Its meaning and potentially abused power become impersonal for them, so its benifits to them are raggedy. Notice that when the Bible is used impersonally, sort of ignorantly, its use will harm instead of heal its reader.
The injured one spreads pain.
God's expansive word was never crammed into the Bible but stretches across creation.
Transformation is the whole point, we forget that. You may be unsure if that's the right view, and perhaps that's why your here, to explore that view in search of identity.
We forget too often that God is not a Christian. Well, He's neither Babtist nor Catholic. He's not a Jew, Muslim, Hindu, or a Buddhist.
Neither male nor female, black or white.
He is the Father of all the people who disagree about Him.
What's He going to do about them?
He will be Your God to You, your Creator, and most relevantly, Your Father.
You are a Mistic.
God Loves All of Us as His Each of Us individually; this whole world, and the next, and the worlds that came before ours.